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It's Chinese New Year eve

All about reunion

I don't have a hometown to return to during Chinese New Year

My everyday home is my hometown

Everyday I'm in my hometown

The place I grew up

Is the place I currently live everyday

Is also the place where basically all my relatives live

Both parent's side of relatives

There are people who study or work at a different place

Who go back to their home only on weekends

And they have a separate hometown to return to during Chinese New Year

I'm home everyday after studying

I'm home on weekends

And I don't have a hometown to return to during Chinese New Year

Perhaps it's a good thing that I am near to my parents and relatives everyday

But sometimes I wonder

Wouldn't it feel nice to have a 'kampung' to 'balik'?

50 : 50

Did you realize that sometimes

It is clearly a 50 : 50 situation

But you always tend to get the wrong side of it?

To let you understand better

Take for example

A pendrive

Whenever you insert it into a USB port without looking at it

It is obviously a 50 : 50 chance isn't it?

It has 2 faces

50% of a chance that it would go in

50% of a chance that it would not

But

It seems like most of the time

You got it wrong during your first try isn't it?

Put it to a larger scale

I see that happening to me in real life as well

50% of a chance that it would go my way

50% of a chance that it would not go my way

But I usually end up not getting it my way

A person say: Let's go watch Movie A

I say: Let's go watch Movie B

50 : 50 chance isn't it?

But usually I end up watching Movie A

Is it because I'm better at compromising?

Is it because I'm easily convinced?

Is it because I'm always overlooked?

Or is it simply because I don't have a better face than other people?

It got me thinking...

I Dream...

I dream

That I'm the drummer of a rock band

Hitting the drums as hard as I could

In a huge concert in front of thousands

I dream

That I'm a superstar actor

Landing in an airport

Where thousands are calling my name when I emerge from the arrival gate

I dream

That I'm a professional footballer

Roaming up and down the pitch

And score goals like nobody's business

I dream

That I'm an astronaut

Be the first person to land on Mars

Or is it?

I dream

That I'm a backpacker

Around the world in 80 days

Alone

I dream

That I'm an European

Living in cities like Milan, Madrid, Paris, London, or Vienna

Or at least a place where it snows

I dream

That I'm powerful

Do whatever I want

According to my wish

I dream

That I'm an evil killer

With no feelings of remorse

So that I can kill whoever that I hate without guilt

I dream

That I'm a hero without superpowers

Someone who just manages to survive the greatest disasters

So that I have a great story to tell

I dream

That I could go back in time

And live in the age

When choosing which colour to colour my colouring book is my biggest dilemma

I dream

That I can jump straight to the future

And skip all hardships in the process

To be the person I wanna be

Well

Dream on