Thursday, May 26, 2011

当自己不是自己生活里的主角的时候

常有人说
人生就像一场戏嘛
而自己
就是故事里主角

可是
你是否曾有觉得自己不是生活里的主角的时候?

曾经一段时间
我脑海里全是她
这个她有一个不是我的他
那时思想和生活作息都被她牵引
心想的是
‘不知她最近好吗‘
’她和他现在怎样了‘
’是天衣无缝还是有机可乘’
常常想要怎样证明些什么给她看
想着想着
变到他和她成了生活里的男女主角
而自己成了配角
自己的故事全围绕在他们的故事发展
其实
当自己不是自己生活里的主角的感觉
是蛮可悲的

不过还好随着情节的发展
他们在我生活的戏份越来越少
而自己抢回了男主角的位置
而她
也不再是女主角了

其实做自己生活里的主角
换句话说
就是为自己而活
这是好也是坏
好的是说不再为不该烦恼的事烦恼
坏的是说变成有点自私
但是有时候
世界是实际的
还是要先对自己好
再对别人好
才不会吃亏

对别人好,但不是被牵引
还蛮难拿捏的
当自己的生活作息被人牵引的时候
自己会变成配角
可是不自私自利的对别人好
自己就不会变成配角
反而还变成好人主角

所以不管是在感情,事业,或人际关系上
还是要把自己当成是主角
不要让他人牵引自己的生活

Monday, May 23, 2011

You Are Only As Good As Today

You are only as good as today

That's a harsh reality
In this cruel world
But when the world is like that
You can't say it's cruel anymore because it's the norm
(Just like we have two eyes, a nose and a mouth
If you suddenly saw someone with an eye, two noses and three mouths
You would say it's weird
But if everyone is like that
Nobody would say it's weird)

You are only as good as today
Past achievements doesn't count
People (or bosses) would only see your most recent stuffs
If it's not good
Then no matter how good you once were
You are not good

The sacking of Chelsea manager Carlo Ancelotti is the best example
He won two trophies in his first season last year
He failed to win any trophies this year
And he got axed
Because he is only as good as today

Of course this doesn't only apply to sports and work
For example if you are a good driver who obey all driving rules all these while
Today you got a summon for speeding
Then people will say you are a bad driver

All these because

You are only as good as today

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Smile :)

It's May 22nd 2011
I thought this date shouldn't even exist?
As some people said yesterday was the end of the world?
-.-"

Come on
Why all the hassle?
Why worry about something which we all know wouldn't happen?
-.-"

Well nothing happened
So just smile
And enjoy the song titled 'Smile'
New song by Avril Lavigne
My girlfriend since 2003
-.-"

When she started
Her theme colour was black
Signalling punk rock
Then 2 albums later
She has pink all over her
Signalling girl power
Now
Her theme colour is...
Green?
-.-"

The verse sound like a typical old Avril Lavigne song
The punk rock feel which has become lesser in attendance in her songs these days
Meanwhile the chorus I would say it's brilliant
In fact I think it's one of the catchiest chorus of all her songs
Made it into my top 5 all-time favourite Avril songs
Alongside 'My Happy Ending', 'Complicated', 'I'm With You', and 'Innocence'
-.-"

Speaking about smile
I often encounter buddies asking me
笑什么笑啦?
I reply
我不是在笑,我是在微笑,做人要时常保持微笑
I know this is lame
-.-"

But seriously
We should all smile more
After all we all wanna look good right?
Perfect situation or worst case scenario
You could still choose to see it as half-glass full or half-glass empty
Even in the tiniest thing in life
For example
It's the day after the rumoured doomsday
And I'm here writing this
And you're here reading this
It could have been a lot worse isn't it?
So
Just smile
:)

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Hearts Over Brains?

Changed my playlist to include the song
Listen To Your Heart
An old song
But nevertheless it's nice

In life
Often we encounter hearts vs brains moments
When we are in a situation
Our first instinct always come from our hearts
Before our brain acts to counter our instincts

Sometimes after we acted according to our hearts
We regret for not using our brains
Sometimes after we acted according to our brains
We regret that we think too much and didn't act according to our hearts

In certain things it's better to use our hearts
In certain things it's better to use our brains
But when a situation comes
It's to hard to determine which is which

Somehow we have to make a decision
And I guess
Right or wrong comes second
Just don't regret your decision
After all it takes courage to do so
And that itself is much better than hesitance

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

回到剧组一日游

前天
也就是刚刚过去的这个星期日
我回到了之前忙到不亦乐乎的剧组

那次在剧组的点滴收录>>>在此<<<

这次回到剧组
是因为上回用了我的车做戏里某个角色的车
而这回为了‘连戏’要拍到该角色的车
所以我得回去‘贡献’我的车了

行外人可能不清楚什么是连戏
其实连戏大概是指不同时候拍摄的戏
用的东西还是需要有连贯
比如说某一幕拍到小强从家里开一辆Myvi要到餐厅吃饭
之后就要拍小强到达餐厅
一定也要是开着Myvi到达餐厅对不对?
可是这两幕可能是隔了好几个礼拜拍的哦
要连戏就是这个意思啦

这次回到剧组
是隔了几个礼拜的时间
其实工作人员也换了一大半
还在的就‘Long time no see'
新加入未见过的就‘Nice to meet you'
与之前不同的是
由于不是工作人员
所以心情还是比较轻松的
不过大半天闲着没事干
竟然当起了半个工作人员
帮忙搬了一些东西
工作时这些是责任及工作的一部分
现在不是工作了
这些变成是自愿帮帮忙旧同事
Feel是不一样的哦
哈哈

毕竟合作过两个星期
当做是探班聚一聚也蛮不错的

当天除了我的车子成为了‘演员’之外
我也捞到了一个小角色来客串一下
讲了两句话
而且是大声骂人的话
之后就消失

哇
好久没有那摄影机镜头对着自己的感觉了
还是会紧张

就两句话
所以我当然会珍惜
讲得淋漓尽致啦
由于是骂人的话
所以有几大声就骂几大声
表情有几凶就几凶
结果好像吓到了几位前同事
他们应该是没想到我能够扮得那么凶吧

最欣慰的是
在戏中被我骂的演员
之后对我说了
‘哇Jentzon, 不错啊’

想不到我参与幕后工作的第一部连续剧
不只让我看到和学到新东西
还造就了我继《追影。筑梦》后第二次在连续剧的出现哦

Saturday, May 14, 2011

Riot

Yesterday was Friday the 13th
Go ahead and complain how unlucky this day could be
But I'm not going there
Instead I'll talk about something which is more significant in the history of Malaysia
Yesterday was significant not because it's Friday the 13th
It's significant because it's May 13th

13th May 1969
To be exact
The day our countrymen rioted


Elections had been held a few days prior to that day
And the results
Malays voted for the government
Chinese voted for the opposition
This was (alongside the most recent election) one of the elections
Where the opposition won a great amount of seats
Racial chaos came after that
I'm not going into the details here
Details about the event could easily be searched on the internet

Daddy told me his account of that day
He was only 11 years old then
Riot started in KL and news about it spread within hours to Klang
Where our family lived
As rumours that wooden houses were in danger of being burnt down by rioters spread
People went looking for hideouts
Grandpa took our family to a bungalow
Which has became a big hideout for lots of people on that day
People had to drill a hole in the fence of that bungalow to sneak in
But the owner understands the situation and allowed people to hide at his place
Women and children remain inside the bungalow
Grandma, father, and his 3 siblings were among them
Adult men guarded the place at the outside armed with defence weapons
Grandpa was among them
The location of the bungalow is somewhere near Kong Hoe primary school

Mummy and family also heard of the rumours of wooden houses being burnt
Her hideout place with grandpa, grandma, and 7 siblings
Was at the upstairs of the row of shops behind Kamdar opposite Chi Liung plaza

Nothing major happened that night in Klang though
However
In KL it was a different story altogether

When daddy and mummy told me about their experience that day
I kinda imagine what the state of panic was like at that time

Riot
What it's like?
I don't know

In another note
If Barcelona wins the Champions League I riot
But wait a minute...
If Man Utd wins I riot too
Argh
Why the final have to be contested by the two teams I hate most in the world?

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

新照 · 旧feel · 怀旧 · 曾经的辉煌


这张照片是用手机里新download的app ‘Retro Camera’ 拍的
拍出来的照片还蛮有feel的嘛
简单的色调和框框
就带出了旧照片的感觉

有时候
从忙碌的生活中
抽一抽时间
停下脚步
回想往事
怀怀旧
把过去的辉煌史从记忆库里搬出来
也挺享受的

最近收集了一些不三不四的东西
如精美汽水瓶,外国含酒精巧克力的盒子等
摆在房里的书架
收着收着
发现不够摆了
要把书架重新整理过以腾出位子
过程中碰了我那好多好久都没碰过的中小学奖杯
书法比赛佳作奖
科学常识比赛冠军
心算比赛亚军
电脑课程Distinction
小时了了啦
我最得意的
还不是以上这些
而是奖杯中最新的
Form 3 班级足球比赛亚军队的奖杯
也是6年前的事了
好久都没任何新奖杯了
这也证明了大未必佳

回想起中学时代
在草场上奔上奔下的我
为了什么?
不就为了对足球的一份爱好和热情
还好五年的effort还有一个小小的‘战利品’把回忆记录起来
我不厉害啦
都是靠队友的
还有十多个跟这个一样样的奖杯在十多个曾经的队友的家中可找到
不过这也可带出一个道理

许多奖杯都不是靠一个人的努力换来的
而是一班人的合作得来的
相信一班人一起赢来的多个一样的奖杯
比自己赢来的一个奖杯更具价值